Don’t give up…..

One day I decided to quit…
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality… I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
“God”, I asked, “Can you give me one good reason not to quit?”
His answer surprised me…
“Look around”, He said. “Do you see the fern and the bamboo?”

“Yes”, I replied.
“When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light.
I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo
,” He said.

“In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit.” He said.


“Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared
to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant…But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.”

He asked me. “Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots. I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.
Don’t compare yourself to others,” He said.

“The bamboo had a different
purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful.
Your time will come,” God said to me. “You will rise high.

“How high should I rise?”
I asked.

“How high will the bamboo rise?” He asked in return.


“As high as it can?” I questioned.


“Yes.” He said, “Give me glory by rising as high as you can.”


I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.

life

Regret is when you look back and realize that you could have done more.
Regret is when you realize that what you did was wrong.
Regret is when you look back on life and wish that you could go back and relive a single day of your past.
Regret is remembering someone who meant so much to you and remembering how you did them wrong.
Regret is looking back on something that meant so much to you and never realizing what you really had.
Regret is never saying I Love you.
Regret is going on in life, having so many regrets in life, and never having the ability to do anything about it.
Regret is never remembering to live life to the fullest

once I was a dreamer… and i thought I had everyhting.. the love..the life and the profession I always wanted to have.. a nurse and an  Officer..

but life never allowed me to have it all for once..

with just one wrong decision( for the sake of somebody close, I wanted to please).. life was never the same again..

looking at those men in uniforms.. listening to their stories .. to their  pains and success.. looking at their triumphant smile.. I smiled and drop a teardrop in my eyes.. wishing ,I was one of them now..

and  hoping that there will be a genie from my Nurse’s lamp,granting  me my One More Wish!!

.. — to bring me back to time when I have to choose between my plane ticket ( to please somebody close) and the 45..

but there will never be a genie.. life is not like a fairy tale.. time machine is just an imagination..

Perhaps I’ll forever say.. tsk!! If only..

past will never be brought back again.. going back will forever be a dream..

but if that dream will be with me tonight.. i’ll just smile.. cry once more and reminisce the memory — the fulfillment and the greatest achievement I had ..

I conquered myself.. I competed with men and most of all I won even in just one part of my life….

wishing and hoping I can do it one more time!!!!

Genie in my nurses lamp.. are you in??

The Lord has a plan for each of us
This I Believe - This I Trust
Doctor - Lawyer - Teacher - Wife
Lord what’s your plan for my life?
Explanations I don’t expect
Just some guidance down the right track
Show me Lord your plan for me
I ask this of you while on my knees
Praying to you helps me to see
The wonderful plan you have for me
The Lord has a plan for each of us
This I Believe - This I Trust

the warrior is a child

Lately I’ve been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I’m amazing
I’m strong beyond my years
But they don’t see inside of me
I’m hiding all the tears

They don’t know that I come running home when I fall down
They don’t know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
‘Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh)

Unafraid because His arrow is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I’m amazing
I never face retreat, oh no
But they don’t see the enemies
That lay me at His feet

They don’t know that I come running home when I fall down
They don’t know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
‘Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh)

They don’t know that I come running home when I fall down
They don’t know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
‘Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh

Scan0009_4 a meaningful song..

Whatever Life may bring… there is always HIM.. to pick us up  when we fall down..

ive been hearing this song for sometime but i didn’t take a second to look into its lyrics.. until one day.. during our devotional moments at the community..

the lyrics explains everything..

they always thought that i am strong.amazing,… a wonder woman…. i never cried.. always in full battlegear..but they never know that deep inside this armor… i was hurt and have cried..

I remember a statement,"naawa ako sa kanya, she seems weak, you’re strong.. makakaya mo to", haaah!!… i smiled..

"nurse ka, professional..i know you’re strong tess..masakit i know… but you’re strong.." thanks ate elena…but i still cried.

"umiiyak ka din pala? asan na yung dati kong friend na astig?? miki!!! remember this statement?

"bok,lumaban ka..do not face retreat"tsk..tsk.. they never saw the pain in me. the fear..they didn’t know i am weak too..

"ma’am, i know kaya mo na.. kaw pa..idol ta ka daan ,astig"..my professionalism was challenged..but they never saw me cry and she will never see me giving up….

thanks queen and mark… thanks for believing in me.. but without your knowing i still stumble,been hurt  and have cried.. a lot, many times..for years…

"BELIEVES DAAN AKO CMU MAA’AM, DAW WONDERWOMAN KA DAAN.." hahaha!!! you don’t know..

they don’t know, that i come running home when i fall down..\

they don’t know, who picks me up when i fall down…

i dropped my sword and cry for a while..coz

deep inside this armor.. i am still a child.

love you LORD…

love you roy!!!